[Albert tenses when he feels that hand gripping his sleeve, but he seems to relax when Caesar sinks down enough to hug him. He's slow to reciprocate, pressing a hand against Caesar's back.]
I wasn't in control. [It's the first thing that comes to mind.] If I was... It wouldn't have happened.
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I wasn't in control. [It's the first thing that comes to mind.] If I was... It wouldn't have happened.