I'm not sure half of the people involved believe it but -- but he was good to me. And I know he felt it -- the guilt for bringing the Grell problem down on our heads. He tried for a very long time to keep the rest of us not involved. Even though...I mean even though I'm me.

[ what she's implying is that she clearly thought herself to be the best solution to the problem. and why not? strong, capable, other victories under her belt. ]